Habit Issues

ya, you heard Me. i have them. i know most people do.
it's verY easy_To keep and do Habits you have started. It is haRd to start new habits(err, no it's not but it's harD to continue them) and even_Harder to lose old ones.

one of my good hAbits that I am into though, is the piano. everyday I have Been able to come home and jam It ouT._I love that. bohemian rhapSody, piano man,_roCket man, can yOu feel the love tonight, some christmas songs, and viDeo gamE theme Songs. (The legend of zelda mostly ;)
_It is so easy to do. i can plomp my backpack next to the couch, drop my tired bottom on the bench....and my fingers, my brain, and even my_souL depending On who is listening; flies away :D it's a hard feeling to describe...although i know a few people reading this who know it ;)

although, of course since i haVe this good habit, I must havE a bad one. like, not being able_To do your own Homework O_o ThEre is soMething about actually_dOing homework aT home.....i can come to scHool and do it no problEm, but it's sitting at my desk, and all my knowledge is lost....

so, instead, i am lead to the computer oR the wii. The computer i can uSe for tons of different social levels including instant-messenger and facebook._However i am terrible At things like surfing the web. i can someTimes look for a fEw places, and get lucky, otherwise i prefer the wii.

wii music is awesome! it's so much fun! :P

_The idea behind it is tHat you make your own style of music. unfortunatEly, it has no edit, or create your own Music section, but that's not the idea...
in it, it has 50 songs such as jingle bell rock, do-re-mi, ode to_joY, carmen, scarbarOugh fair, animal crossing, etc. many songs that people can easily recognize.
the wii remote and nUnchuk are very versatile in this._sAy you want to play the guitar. lift your nunchuk, stRum with the wii rEmote. that's all there is to it. you just have to recognize the way they hold the instrument, and "air_Guitar" to it.
thrOughout the song, it gives you a metrOnome like squaD of guys that change shapes showing the section of the song. there are also these little....creepy....guys..... that help play the part. before you begin playing, they are the default, playing the music and giving you a sample. you also have a scroll-left-to-right-then-down of notes, that tell you when to play.

the big_dIfference between this and rock band or guitar hero, is that you don't have to hit the notes. in_fAct, you can wait out the entire song if you would like to, but where's the fun in that? the idea is that you can mix around with the rhythM, _Beat, and pitch of the notes, to customizE it and make iT your own. since you can't play six posiTions at once, you can dub yourself, or play a part, rEcord it, then play another part, while your recording plays as well. but the veRy best part is how well you can play with 1, 2, or 3 other friends. when you are_alLowed to jam as much as yOu want, you can have the best time in the world.

this is now my #1 game for when friends come oVer that do not know how to play the wii(and most other friEnds who do, as well)

judging by how long that section was, you can see which hobby i do the most, no matter how much fun and time i get and spend at the piano.....

now if you want to guess what my last hobby is, you might want to read over my entry Again. this time, slower, paying attention to the details. you might find something of interest. if you figure it out, then write a comment saying so. not the answer, but i just want to find alL of the smart people out therE ;)

- aleX

and Amazement

2 months ago, I fell into something. I think it was a pit. It wasn't a bad pit, it also wasn't a deep one. And yet, I couldn't see the outside world. At school I was an empty shell. No one noticed of course, but I couldn't even see my own feet.
I animatedly did the homework, took notes, and stressed up for upcoming tests.

I lost someone 4 months ago, but I thought I didn't care...I think my mind simply missed nights of endless texting, even if they weren't very good...And I don't believe that was what dropped me in my pit...i did.

I hid myself, I dug my own hole. 2 months ago, all I wanted to do was hide in a good book, or imerse myself on the piano. I'm getting better at doing that you know. but for my pit, it fueled my digging even more.

She's pulling me out. Teagan.

Teagan.

:D

On thursday, I went to a party with her. It was a pretty good masquerade party actually, but it didn't really have to be. She made it really nice.

Uplifting.

Literally.

6 hours is a lot of time to be with someone. I'm not sure it was enough ;)
It was only supposed to be 3 hours, 4 to 7. That was when everyone else was there, the...18? boys and girls...That time was nice, but sp was wimpy
(by the way, SP is my Second Personality, a defense mechanism designed to help me show my rage, sadness, and courage. He helps in hard situations, but isn't dependable)
while everyone else was there he was hiding... -_-
although, at 7, most of the friends left. except for 4 other friends...and teagan.

That time was ,again, one of the best of my life. we were really together the entire time. Really together. Not just word binding, "let's go out" but mentally. Spiritually. We barely spoke at all, mostly to just comment on connor "ewwww!!!!"
as we stared into each other's eyes ;D

Sp helped out a lot here, but he used up his supply of courage by the end of the night...We ended up staying there for another 3 hours...I knew my dad was coming to pick me up, but I thought I had at least 5 more minutes...Teagan and I were close...so close...but of course, in pops my brother, right into the middle of the front room, just in time.

-_- -_- -_- -_- -_- -_- -_- -_- -_-

But, the next day was halloween, and I got an idea. Me and connor went to Teagan's neighborhood for ToT. 1. I'm sorry connor, I needed a third wheel...hopefully you can understand.I forgot my ball of string, so I couldn't get you away for a second, even though you closed your eyes... -_- 2. Yes, teenagers go trick or treating. Who's gonna say no to free candy? seriously, we are freeloaders aren't we :D

Halloween didn't last as long as the party, and we weren't as close-
She was playing HANDSIES!!! I don't like handsies.... :( The game is to keep your boyfriend from gripping your hand, or holding you... like i said.......

It ended the same way though, with sp wimping out, and the deadline coming far too soon. also, again with connor hovering over us strangely...

...so close...

In my pit I can only see a tiny angle of the world.

Teagan is opening my eyes by only staring into two.

Much more that I can speak about, can only be spoke of to her. ;)

ta ta for now


P.S. La passion qu'elle a pour lui est donnée sans mot, il ne peut pas être parlé, il est trop pure.
Il est donné par son amour et sa présence.

P.S.S. (the last two "his" are supposed to be her)