Things are gonna change. I know so.
March will be a time to Learn, or Know.
April will be a time to Act, or Do.
May will be a time to Share, or Become.
March: I will pull myself out of this glunk (with a little tug from that friendly spirit, "THE KING OF THE NORTH POLE!!!" (The Polar Express)) and I will start to realize that "A double minded man is unstable in all his ways" (James 1:8), and that I cannot continue to expect that I can just work hard at school and play at home, that I need to do my homework.
April: By this point in time, I will have learned how to work at home, and will put it into practice with study and review for the 5 AP tests I will be taking.
May: I will take the AP tests, and I will become a graduated student of Murray High School, ready to dive into a year of college before my mission.
...That's the plan, anyway.
I got the M98B in Battlefield 3. Anyone care? No? Me neither.
I built a piston canal and portcullis in Minecraft. Anyone care? No? Me neither.
I haven't been reading my scriptures. Anyone care? Yep? Me too.
I haven't been saying my prayers. Anyone care? One God? Yep.
I haven't been writing in my journals. Anyone care? No? I do.
So, I got two really conflicting quotes on my wall right now, that could explain my slump. One says:
"Writing is hard work, but it can be pleasant hard work if we see it for what it really is - a challenge to our creativity, an opportunity to know our own mind, and a chance to share our thoughts and feelings with others.' - John R. Trimble, Writing with Style, Epilog, pg. 138
It tells me why I should write in my journals. Why I should partake of this ambition.
But the other says:
"Seek happiness in tranquility and avoid ambition, even if it be only the apparently innocent one of distinguishing yourself in science and discoveries." - Frankenstein, Mary Shelley, pg. 192.
I went out to find that tranquility, and avoided the ambition that I had thought was writing...I never found that happiness. I still haven't quite found it.
I just took down that quote.
The writing one remains.
...I hope this will make me happy...
